the smell of gasoline in the air
not exactly sure which memory this smell brought up, but again it seems that it brings me to spring and summer evenings...
Monday, March 15, 2010
3.11.10 Day 44
the smell of wet grass and wet dirt
it brings me back to the many years that i played soccer as a kid. no matter how cold or how (reasonably) wet the field was, i was always brought to practice and games. i remember as a kid i loved playing soccer especially when i was one of the fastest kids on the team, but as i got older that changed really fast lol. first i was on the town team then i moved to a private soccer club. LISC. playing in the regional area and with other kids from my town. i remember at one point i hated it so much that i just stopped caring, i remember that i thought i was so bad that i just got depressed from playing soccer, and worst of all, i remember the shin splints...
i couldnt run for more than five minutes without my shins and heels killing like hell. i think the doctor said it was severs disease and was caused by my body growing (lol) and that it would go away eventually.
despite all the negatives soccer got me to meet and know other kids from my team atleast. people that i probably wouldnt have met on my own. even though i never really got to know them well, it was still good seeing people in the halls or in my classes that knew me.
it brings me back to the many years that i played soccer as a kid. no matter how cold or how (reasonably) wet the field was, i was always brought to practice and games. i remember as a kid i loved playing soccer especially when i was one of the fastest kids on the team, but as i got older that changed really fast lol. first i was on the town team then i moved to a private soccer club. LISC. playing in the regional area and with other kids from my town. i remember at one point i hated it so much that i just stopped caring, i remember that i thought i was so bad that i just got depressed from playing soccer, and worst of all, i remember the shin splints...
i couldnt run for more than five minutes without my shins and heels killing like hell. i think the doctor said it was severs disease and was caused by my body growing (lol) and that it would go away eventually.
despite all the negatives soccer got me to meet and know other kids from my team atleast. people that i probably wouldnt have met on my own. even though i never really got to know them well, it was still good seeing people in the halls or in my classes that knew me.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
3.10.11 Day 43
so i was walking down worcester hill today, and the smell of spring is finally coming
well its either that or summer. and the evening has a particular smell. it brought back a rather strong memory.
i remember all those summer evenings where my dad would be outside grilling chicken for dinner. me and andrew would usually be running around doing stupid things out side like lighting sticks on fire with the grill.
man come to think of it, my family used to be mad tight, realtive to what it is today. i mean im sure many families go through a fallout especially once the children start their own lives and seeing as 3 of us have left the house for school, well really 2 of us living outside of the house, one returned and is living back home.
regardless, we would always make it a poitn to eat dinner every night, sure us kids wouldnt really talk about anything but the poitn of eating dinner, i now understand.
i miss the feeling of that, sure here i eat with my friends, but we eat shit food, but friends are definitely on a different level than family.
i cant wait till i go back home...
ps. i feel like these posts could be so much more...
well its either that or summer. and the evening has a particular smell. it brought back a rather strong memory.
i remember all those summer evenings where my dad would be outside grilling chicken for dinner. me and andrew would usually be running around doing stupid things out side like lighting sticks on fire with the grill.
man come to think of it, my family used to be mad tight, realtive to what it is today. i mean im sure many families go through a fallout especially once the children start their own lives and seeing as 3 of us have left the house for school, well really 2 of us living outside of the house, one returned and is living back home.
regardless, we would always make it a poitn to eat dinner every night, sure us kids wouldnt really talk about anything but the poitn of eating dinner, i now understand.
i miss the feeling of that, sure here i eat with my friends, but we eat shit food, but friends are definitely on a different level than family.
i cant wait till i go back home...
ps. i feel like these posts could be so much more...
3.9.10 Day 42
so i ran out of clothes today...
every time i run out of clean clothes (this time socks and t shirts) i find my using things that i normally dont wear. its going to be dress shirts and sandals for the rest of the week until i can get home and do laundry!!
even last year i did the same things, strange thing is that everyone notices and can tell when ive run out of clean laundry... am i that obvious?
every time i run out of clean clothes (this time socks and t shirts) i find my using things that i normally dont wear. its going to be dress shirts and sandals for the rest of the week until i can get home and do laundry!!
even last year i did the same things, strange thing is that everyone notices and can tell when ive run out of clean laundry... am i that obvious?
3.8.10 Day 41
wow, i didnt know how far behind i was...
this is the most behind that i have been in a while :-\
quitting smoking is a bitch, i find myself twitching alot and my memory isnt as good as it used to be, i find myself second guessing whether something really happened or not haha... its like being old :-\
this is the most behind that i have been in a while :-\
quitting smoking is a bitch, i find myself twitching alot and my memory isnt as good as it used to be, i find myself second guessing whether something really happened or not haha... its like being old :-\
3.7.10 Day 40
again another warm day....
these days are just getting warmer and warmer, but i wonder if its going to get cold again... i hope it doesnt...
these days are just getting warmer and warmer, but i wonder if its going to get cold again... i hope it doesnt...
3.6.10 Day 39
so my friend reads alot of magazines, you know those girly ones haha
and in alot of them there are those perfume ads.
some of them smell good, and some of them i can see myself wearing. but some of them just bring back rather random memories. like a girls perfume ad brought up the memory of the drivers we had in the philippines.
the filipinos take very good of their cars, so natrually they want it to smell nice, not to mention a smelly driver is basically a nono.
but just smelling that one ad made me remember of all the times i rode in their cars, going from point a to point b, kinda safe from the outside.
its strange, something so small as a car window can protect you and shield you from things, it prevents you from noticing the world around you, the poverty, the pollution. everything. especially when youre a kid
and in alot of them there are those perfume ads.
some of them smell good, and some of them i can see myself wearing. but some of them just bring back rather random memories. like a girls perfume ad brought up the memory of the drivers we had in the philippines.
the filipinos take very good of their cars, so natrually they want it to smell nice, not to mention a smelly driver is basically a nono.
but just smelling that one ad made me remember of all the times i rode in their cars, going from point a to point b, kinda safe from the outside.
its strange, something so small as a car window can protect you and shield you from things, it prevents you from noticing the world around you, the poverty, the pollution. everything. especially when youre a kid
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
3.5.10 Day 38
the 5th was a good day. there were many memories that were brought up...
one distinct one was hearing fighter jets fly right over my head. back from where im from, theres an airforce base near my house, during the spring/ early summer we would hear alot of jets flying over, especially the ones practicing for the air show. and that air show ive only been to once or twice, ut in terms of being on the base itself, maybe three or four times, mostly for filipino school functions and once because my family and i went to the air show.
the day that we went for the air show was amazing, just seeing all of the military jets and planes. just standing next to one makes you feel dwarfed.
one distinct one was hearing fighter jets fly right over my head. back from where im from, theres an airforce base near my house, during the spring/ early summer we would hear alot of jets flying over, especially the ones practicing for the air show. and that air show ive only been to once or twice, ut in terms of being on the base itself, maybe three or four times, mostly for filipino school functions and once because my family and i went to the air show.
the day that we went for the air show was amazing, just seeing all of the military jets and planes. just standing next to one makes you feel dwarfed.
3.4.10 Day 37
so the 4th was a thursday, in terms of anything interesting happening, i spent that night at the library again lol... i mean in anyway that i cut it, im spending so much more time in the library this semseter than i ever had. and maybe its my work eithic, but regardless of that, i jsut have a lot of work and very little time. high school was never this intense... i mean sure there were tests here and there, a quiz every so often but in terms of amount of work, i feel like one week of work here is a quarter's work in high school. funny isnt that?
3.3.10 Day 36
hoooooooooly fuck its been a while since i posted...
i havent been this behind in everything since like
lol probably right now... schools a bitch, im whining but who cares lol
its been an interesting week, but as always, bahala na.
i havent been this behind in everything since like
lol probably right now... schools a bitch, im whining but who cares lol
its been an interesting week, but as always, bahala na.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
3.2.10 Day 35
i wish i could go back in time and listen to all the music i used to listen to.
i went over to youtube, and its music tuesday! lo and behold, one of the members of the gorillaz chose the music, along with it was the mv to their new video stylo. great video, song is eh compared to their older work, but regardless. i went searching for some of my old music, got to star guitar (which i thought was originally by shinichi osawa but turns out it was originally by the chemical brothers). that led me to the other songs by the chem bros. after that i hit up more gorillaz, my personal favorite being feel good inc.
right after taht, i hit a brick wall... i wish i could go back and see what i was like, what i listened to. maybe it was "stupid" music, but hey, to each his own right?
i went over to youtube, and its music tuesday! lo and behold, one of the members of the gorillaz chose the music, along with it was the mv to their new video stylo. great video, song is eh compared to their older work, but regardless. i went searching for some of my old music, got to star guitar (which i thought was originally by shinichi osawa but turns out it was originally by the chemical brothers). that led me to the other songs by the chem bros. after that i hit up more gorillaz, my personal favorite being feel good inc.
right after taht, i hit a brick wall... i wish i could go back and see what i was like, what i listened to. maybe it was "stupid" music, but hey, to each his own right?
3.1.10 Day 34
historically, my birthday hasnt been anything special. sure there were a few good birthdays here and there. but when you boil it down, its just another day. i know when i was much younger i would love my birthdays, the friends, the family and the gifts. oh the gifts! but i age, people find it harder to shop for me. but why? maybe its just because i dont know what i want materially. i mean as far as i can tell, i have all the materials i need to get by. a car would be nice, but lets be realistic, im simply a college student with no money...
i guess the disconnect with me is celebrating life. as a human, ive survived another year, but isnt that a robotic way of looking at it?
i guess the disconnect with me is celebrating life. as a human, ive survived another year, but isnt that a robotic way of looking at it?
2.28.10 Day 33
fate and free will, its something that ive given a lot of thought to in the past couple of years. How exactly I got to thinking about this im not really sure… I think its more of the question : are we in control of our own lives or is it completely out of our hands?
click the link to read on
click the link to read on
2.27.10 Day 32
once again i find myself behind on posts lol
i spent last night in my room (26th) sitting and thinking about alot of things. friends are good to have, but sometimes they can only get you so far. at some point you need to let go of the training wheels and ride on your own. it might be uneasy the first few times that you have a go at it, but you will get better. so go ahead, take control of your life, its scary no?
i spent last night in my room (26th) sitting and thinking about alot of things. friends are good to have, but sometimes they can only get you so far. at some point you need to let go of the training wheels and ride on your own. it might be uneasy the first few times that you have a go at it, but you will get better. so go ahead, take control of your life, its scary no?
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
