something was bothering me last night...
have you ever had one of those things where you imagine a smell and a rush of memories flood into your head? and even if that smell is not anywhere around you, you can still smell it faintly?
lately ive been smelling spring and summer. the scent of freshly fallen rain, the scent of freshly cut grass. the sound of crickets and frogs in the cool humid nights under the vast night sky lit up by the moon. i long for the time when i can sit outside,on a grassy hill, and listen, to both nature and the gentle hum of the highway near my house. some of my greatest memories, although not very important, are of just lying in bed listening, smelling. or even this past summer, going to spy pond, smoking and watching the water ripple under the night sky. ive always been a nocturnal creature. and i dont think that is going to change anytime soon. i mean the day time is cool and all, but nighttime brings solitude and time to think. i really wish it were warmer out right now. despite the fact that thinking can and usually leads to over thinking, theres just been so much going on in my head. the things i wish i could say. the ideas that i could get set in motion. there is a flaw in my mind. it wont let me translate thoughts into actual words. even right now i am suffering from massive word vomit or something.
i mean getting back to it all. spring and summer bring freedom and comfort to everyone. i would give anything for a warm summer night/day right now. winter just brings sadness to all. i cant believe theres even a freaking disorder for this stuff... SAD, seasonally affected disorder. and honestly everyone gets it some worse than others. but i guess its just that winter brings true solitude into all of our lives. its because the nights are longer and people usually spend more time by themselves rather than enjoying the company of others. this is the truth for me, even though i see myself as a lone wolf. (LOL) even a wolf needs its company... and in times of need, its good to have people that care about you. the loneliest winter isnt so bad when surrounded by people...
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tl;dr : good start, fragments towards the end...
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